The older I grow I realize more and more that some things in life, you just have to go for. In my life i have lived by rules setup by my own mind censoring what I can and cannot do. My fun is regulated by over thinking situations which almost always ends in regret. Whether it be with job offerings, family issues that aren't dealt with, and especially girls. Off the record wtf is going on with people. Were raised to treat people with respect and be kind to those who are kind to us... Like i was raised to " treat girls with kindness and be just genuinely nice to women and they'll like you in return" Basically fuck that shit....it doesnt work and only about 10% of females are into someone like that. I keep hearing..." ahh Ben ur exactly what girls want later in life" so basically ive been told numerous times that im exactly what there lookin for...but they'd rather fuck with guys that treat them like shit and make them feel worthless. Funny thing is there right...cause they always come back....but no one likes to be second choice so will ultimatly get the last laugh.
Bah that was shitty for me to say...sounds like a revenge type thing but damn...shits frustrating...i just dont want to give in and accept that this really is how things are.
things need to change cause i expected more out of life than these current situations
